i cant ever win. i dont feel bad for not putting my best effort into school, because it would of been a waste of my time. there is no point in trying anymore. people will still put me down, my parents wont even help me out when im down. nothing good has happened this year. even in sports ive never won shit. and i cant post this in public because people will scrutinize me, but i post it here because i am hoping i will still come out on top and someone will be there with me. it is a wasted dream and i shouldnt bother but im always up to compete but im running out of juice. and if people want to scrutinize me on here like they have done before well fuck it, proves my point that i just cant get something to go my way.